Interestingly, the Queens Library System has proclaimed this week “Broken Heart Week”.
Also interestingly: Finland’s Valentine’s Day is actually called “Ystävänpäivä”, or “friend day”.
(One could imagine the conversation. “I’m sorry”, said Finland to 14 February, “but I don’t see it like that…”)
Anyhow, this article is about something tangentially related…and it is one that a lot of my language-learning blogger friends haven’t touched on, namely…
What if, for whatever reason, you may feel emotionally weighed down by the thought of a certain language, even if part of you wants to learn it (or re-learn it)?
This can come in many forms:
- General negativity associated based on past experiences. Some of you know that I had a very stringent Jewish education in my teenage years (not from my parents). While I am grateful for a significant amount of knowledge given by this experience, in the long run, especially emotionally, it caused a significant amount of harm in too many ways to count. Luckily, I am repairing my relationship with my Jewish roots not only with Yiddish and Hebrew but also with various events in New York and beyond catered to curious open-minded young people like myself. Sometimes I couldn’t read certain Hebrew texts without being vexed or irritated.
- Cultural dissonance. My relationship with American culture has been difficult, given as due to the fact that I never really understood it from the inside. I deliberately avoid a lot of contact with English-Language entertainment and news and, as a result, my accent has sometimes shifted to a hodge-podge of everywhere that I’ve lived, not also to mention the many languages I’ve studied.
- Being bullied by speakers of a certain language at one point.
- Having gotten out of a relationship with a speaker of that language and having the end go badly.
- Having studied that language at school and having had bad experiences learning it there (everything from discouraging teacher to having done poorly in the class or on a standardized test.)
- Having been discouraged by other learners or native speakers along the way. Spanish and Swedish were among the worst for me in this regard, with some speakers telling off my efforts as well as, in the case of some Swedish speakers, either refusing to use the language or belittling my efforts. Thankfully, and I should make it clear, these are a minority among human beings! I want to let you know that anyone who treats you this way in regards to language learning is painfully insecure about his or her own goals!
In my polyglot journey, I’ve felt all of these at one point or another. These feelings are difficult, ones that almost administer an electric shock whenever you want to somehow cure them or even look at the problem.
Here are some possible things to keep in mind:
- Sometimes you need to take a break.
Perhaps you may need some time apart from the language or culture that you may have had bad experiences with. Recognize these feelings, and then consider separating.
It doesn’t have to be forever! You can easily come back to it when you “calmed down” significantly, when time has healed you a little bit (or a lot) more.
During this time (and I should know, given how many languages I’ve learned to high levels and then forgotten), you may have memories pop up now and again about the times you had together.
Perhaps one of these memories may be strong or meaningful enough so that you may want to come back. And coming back is always an option when you feel up to it.
- Learning a language to a level lower than sturdy fluency is okay.
I play favorites. Back when I was a less seasoned polyglot I tried to pretend as though I couldn’t, and let me tell you that any polyglot who says that he or she doesn’t play favorites is almost definitely lying.
I like Scandinavian and Celtic Languages a lot better than a lot of popular global languages. That’s okay.
I feel that I may not know Spanish to the same degree that I know Yiddish or Bislama or Swedish because of the pain of a significant amount of discouragement form learning throughout the years. And that’s okay. Who knows? Maybe it will be my favorite language one day…
I may have been attached to Russian culture in the past and have moved onto new horizons. My Russian is nowhere near as good as it was and now it’s quite pathetic. But that’s okay as well.
- Each Culture has many cultures within it, and one of them will fit you somehow.
This also ties into another issue I didn’t mention before, which is “I can’t speak or learn language X because of historical baggage Y”.
This also ties into the other unmentioned issue which is “I can’t have a resonance with language X because of the actions of a certain government or political figure”.
Within any culture, no matter how small, there are many more subcultures than the ones seen in guidebooks or in the history books.
If the issue of cultural resonance is lacking, look for another culture or subculture associated with that language.
This may serve to change your view of that language completely.
- School Performance and Grades have constantly diminishing importance as you get older.
The sort of bad performance that brought me to tears a decade ago would be something I would laugh at now.
If you so will it, you can change your view of the world, so that the tests means nothing, the negative feedback of any of your peers mean nothing, and that the only thing that really does matter is whether or not you are on the path to acquiring the dreams you want.
- You’ll show them one day!
That one time that was told my “Norwegian accent was awful”?
That one time I was told that I spoke “a bit of Swedish” when I was putting together complete sentences?
That one time I was told “you obviously don’t know any Spanish, she told me you couldn’t be understood?”
And the many, many times I got answered to in English?
I just turned around, with some bitterness, and I said, “I’ll show them”
And that is what I did.
And that is what you will do as well.
And you know that if you encounter those people again, with your hyper-leveled up skills, they will not treat you the same way they did before.
- You don’t need discouraging influence in your life, much less have it affect you in the long wrong.
Here is something I want you to read carefully, okay? Can you remember it?
The people who discourage you from language learning of any sort are always wrong.
No more worries about that.
There may be the time in which they may genuinely want to help you, in which case that is okay and they will make it clear from the outset that that is what they are doing. But as to mean behavior, belittling your skills, they’re wrong. And this is Jared telling you to let you know that they’re wrong.
And that your dreams are right.